Dear readers, friends, uni peers, and random stragglers,
This isn’t going to be easy to write, but here goes.
I’ve been thinking about this for a while now and going back and forth about what to do, but I’ve spoken to some friends and family in the last week or so. I think I’ve come to a final decision. You might be thinking – decision? Decision on what? I’ll stop stalling now and tell you.
I think perhaps uni isn’t for me. It’s not that I’m not having fun or doing well; I am. It’s just that I feel like I’m wasting my time and putting so much energy into keeping up with writing and school work, and I can’t balance it with the rest of my life. At the end of the day, it all feels really pointless because truly having a degree won’t get me a job, and it probably won’t get me a job that I’m happy doing.
I want to have more time to myself and for the people and things I love, so, unfortunately, as of next Thursday, Tyneesha.com will become inactive. I’ll leave the site up because I have put so much into it in the past year or so, but I won’t be posting anymore; uni work or personal stuff. I also won’t be actively fixing bugs and such. Lately, my site has had little things go wrong constantly for whatever reason. Plugins break, the site crashes, etc., and it’s so stressful and irritating to keep fixing.
I’m really quite proud of some of the things I’ve achieved in the last few years and the opportunities I’ve opened myself up to. I do think, though, that I’d rather be investing in my photography at the end of the day. It pays better, It’s easier to get work, I could be making money through it if I had the time and space given to the blog and uni. It’s also the life path that I feel the most emotionally drawn to. I find it so gratifying, and it’s something that I really care about and would like to put more of my energy into.
I don’t know whether or not I’ll change my mind at some point in the future and try persuing writing again – but it’ll likely just be me writing for my own satisfaction or peace of mind.
Not to make this sound like an acceptance speech or anything, but a huge thank you goes out to my friends and family, who’ve been endlessly supportive and encouraging, as well as my uni professors and tutors, who’ve taught me so much in the past two years. I’m honestly going to miss the business of being a uni student, but I think this is the best decision for me right now. I’m excited to see where this rather interesting decision takes me.
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